Words cannot describe how BIG our God is. Why I ever underestimate Him is beyond me. I've probably said this a thousand times, but I'm one of the most stubborn people I know. I'm the person that God completely rocks their world to reveal himself, because I want to do everything on my own. (one thing I'm seriously working on.) Faith is really hard for me.
Two weeks ago at my home church, we started a 4 week series on forgiveness. We were challenged to forgive who we have been withholding forgiveness. Honestly, I didn't know who this would be. Not that I think that I'm perfect (we all know I'm far from perfect), but I just couldn't think of someone that I needed to forgive. For the following week, I prayed daily that God would reveal to me who I needed to forgive and who I needed to ask for forgiveness. I hadn't got an answer so I just assumed that I was "good to go" Boy, was I wrong!?!
This past Sunday was week 2, "Extending Forgiveness." I felt the same way going into the service as I had the previous week. As usual, I got my notebook out and began writing down all the sermon points. I was breezing through the service and all was well because I "had my stuff together." Wrong AGAIN. For the last 10 minutes of the sermon, weird "God" things started happening. Heart racing. Hands sweating. Nervous. Tears welling up. I call these "God" things because when this happens to me, it's usually because I'm about to have to act on pure faith that God has the situation in control and all I can do is follow what He tells me to do.
Following God's calling, though it's not always easy, is most definitely always worth it. I knew from the moment everything happened that I had to make a move. I couldn't avoid it without being completely miserable.
I have a few questions for you and myself. Who do you need to forgive? What is keeping you from the full potential that God wants for you? Do you honestly believe that He is in complete control? What is keeping you from giving Him full control?
